08/18/25

Morty spent the night with me last night even though he had to work this morning. I’m happy that he stayed with me after the night we had together. I woke up for a moment as he tells me bye and I fall back asleep. I have a bad dream that I’m back to being alone and I am miserable. In the dream I know that I am missing Morty in my life but I can’t find him. This is the second time I have had a bad dream that I lose Morty. The night before I had a nightmare that I found out he was sleeping with two guys and he didn’t care that I was upset. In that dream, I could not come to terms that Morty would do this. I couldn’t comprehend how the person that I had been getting to know and love would betray me like that. It makes me wonder if this will be a new normal for me. Being so fearful of losing Morty. Is this normal? Does all of my baggage and history make my subconscious play out these scenarios? 

After texting Morty, I feel better. He said that he had a similar bad dream last night but he woke up and saw me next to him and felt better. I sent Aurora a message to ask for help figuring out how to set up a blog, and sent a copy of my college transcript to my new employer. Hopefully that is the last thing they need and can confirm my start date next week. 

I can not believe how time has been flowing since I met Morty. My birthday is this Sunday, and I’m supposed to either return to my last job or start my new job on the next day. Wow, time is flying! And, I'm eager to live a new day with Morty every day I wake up.